His Kingdom

Wow! I can't believe it's been over a month already.  Feels like I just got here yesterday! God has been doing some awesome things in such a short period and I know that His faithfulness will only show up bigger as time goes on.

One virtue God has been wrestling with me is humility.  The leadership of Hillsong, especially in Hillsong College, constantly emphasizes the principle and practice of humility.  Being humble is hard! It seems like a life long process and experience that will take forever to get! It's easy to say, "I'm humble.  Lord use me however you see fit." But when it comes down to it, when you see a peer elevated to a leadership position...and you're not; or you see another student being edified by a leader of the church...and you're not; or you see God moving through another person in profound ways...and you feel like you're not...well all of a sudden that humble attitude turns into a "Why not me Lord?!" attitude.

I know I personally start to justify my bitter, ungrateful and hurt attitude.  "Lord, I pray everyday! I read your Word.  I spend personal time with you.  I've been praying for opportunity.  Don't you see me and my oh-so-humble heart? ..."  You get the point.

But as many Hillsong instructors and many Godly men and women before them have put it, it's not about you.

When did the Lord's plan become all about me and my story? Hasn't it always been His story that He has placed me in?  Since when were they "my dreams"?  Hadn't they been put there by the Lord and won't He carry them out in His perfect timing?

Side of Hillsong Church City Campus

Matthew 6:33 "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." (TNIV)

"What's the condition of your heart?  And how are you looking at what God has placed in your hand?" -Mary Capper

Christ's Cause > my dream.

And His Cause will achieve so much more than anything I can dream.  He called me here and has purpose for me: Philippians 1:6 "being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Jesus Christ." (TNIV) But I can't let my agenda rule over His.  So even if I don't get to serve directly where I would hope to, God is so good and faithful.  I want to give wherever He has placed me my whole passion for His Kingdom.

My prayer for this season is that I would be Kingdom-minded rather than self-minded.  While my goals and aspirations are good, they can never compare to where God wants to take me! No matter the ministry: street teams, greeter, host, media, worship, choir, venue, call center, next steps, hospitality, sound, front desk, kids, nursery, embrace, set-up, tear-down, janitorial, whatever the church needs!  I will give God my all and truly worship Him through my actions and my attitude.

Thank you for all your prayers and support!! I can feel and see them working.  I'm praying for you too. Love you all!!

Lightening Storm

Intense

Wow! Just finished my first week of real classes after a full week of "intensives." Intensives being almost 8 hours of lectures each day for three days!  I'll tell you, it's been a busy and intense two weeks.  God has already revealed so much to me and it's only going to get bigger and better and harder.

Here are some quotes from amazing men and women of God who taught and preached the Word here at Hillsong:

"Kingdoms are extended, destroyed, and maintained through language." -Robert Furgeson

"Your tongue describes the position of your heart." -Robert Furgeson

Hillsong College Chapel

"Here at Hillsong, we're not looking for clones or cookie cutouts..." -Tracy Barrell

"If you're not glad...you're serving something else [not God]." (pertaining to serving in your local church) -Catrina Henderson

"When Christians do church together they ought to see God." -Duncan Corby

"Your value cannot be determined by your gifting, your value is established in Christ." -Duncan Corby

"It's far better to finish things when people still want more than to finish 10 minutes later than they had hoped." -Duncan Corby

"What if we looked at people like they were just one step away from Jesus?"-Lee Burn

"If you're not gripped by the cause, nothing will change." -Lee Burn

"Jesus didn't do away with the law.  He fulfilled it." -Catrina Henderson

"Live your life in a way that favor loves you." -Brian Houston

"Favor is not the absence of challenges." -Brian Houston

"A family. A body. A house."

Of course that is the tiniest snap shot into two weeks packed with amazing teachings.  Even more so, not only did we have intensives we also got to be a part of Vision Night at Hillsong! Hearing and seeing Brian and Bobbie's vision for the church that impacts the world was incredible.  Home.  That's the 2012 vision for Hillsong Church across the globe; to be a place where anyone can walk in the doors and feel at home in Jesus Christ.

God is teaching me so much and softening my heart in ways I couldn't have imagined! And it's only 4 weeks into being here! Wow. God is good. Thank you for all your support and love.

I haven't found a job yet...though I've applied to several places and I'm still on the hunt. Please be praying that I find one soon! Learning to trust the Lord in my finances. And learning to stay strict to my budget. What up?!

I've been to the beach once and I'm still making incredible friends! God's doing great things while I'm here.  Be praying for Sean Welch as he's serving a year in Haiti. So proud of that man! Thanks for all the love and support and prayers. I so feel them!!

Love,

Jessica

Myself, Caro, and Allie

Maroubra Beach