His Kingdom

Wow! I can't believe it's been over a month already.  Feels like I just got here yesterday! God has been doing some awesome things in such a short period and I know that His faithfulness will only show up bigger as time goes on.

One virtue God has been wrestling with me is humility.  The leadership of Hillsong, especially in Hillsong College, constantly emphasizes the principle and practice of humility.  Being humble is hard! It seems like a life long process and experience that will take forever to get! It's easy to say, "I'm humble.  Lord use me however you see fit." But when it comes down to it, when you see a peer elevated to a leadership position...and you're not; or you see another student being edified by a leader of the church...and you're not; or you see God moving through another person in profound ways...and you feel like you're not...well all of a sudden that humble attitude turns into a "Why not me Lord?!" attitude.

I know I personally start to justify my bitter, ungrateful and hurt attitude.  "Lord, I pray everyday! I read your Word.  I spend personal time with you.  I've been praying for opportunity.  Don't you see me and my oh-so-humble heart? ..."  You get the point.

But as many Hillsong instructors and many Godly men and women before them have put it, it's not about you.

When did the Lord's plan become all about me and my story? Hasn't it always been His story that He has placed me in?  Since when were they "my dreams"?  Hadn't they been put there by the Lord and won't He carry them out in His perfect timing?

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Matthew 6:33 "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." (TNIV)

"What's the condition of your heart?  And how are you looking at what God has placed in your hand?" -Mary Capper

Christ's Cause > my dream.

And His Cause will achieve so much more than anything I can dream.  He called me here and has purpose for me: Philippians 1:6 "being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Jesus Christ." (TNIV) But I can't let my agenda rule over His.  So even if I don't get to serve directly where I would hope to, God is so good and faithful.  I want to give wherever He has placed me my whole passion for His Kingdom.

My prayer for this season is that I would be Kingdom-minded rather than self-minded.  While my goals and aspirations are good, they can never compare to where God wants to take me! No matter the ministry: street teams, greeter, host, media, worship, choir, venue, call center, next steps, hospitality, sound, front desk, kids, nursery, embrace, set-up, tear-down, janitorial, whatever the church needs!  I will give God my all and truly worship Him through my actions and my attitude.

Thank you for all your prayers and support!! I can feel and see them working.  I'm praying for you too. Love you all!!

Lightening Storm